#op was an endo

[interstellarsystem]

Nonhuman expressions of affection are great. Purring. Exposing weak points as a show of trust. Head bonks. Preening and chewing. Nuzzling. Biting. Intertwining tails. Feeding each other. Little chuffs, chatters, beeps and squeaks. Fluffing up of feathers, fur or other things. Dancing to impress. Cleaning their fur, scales, feathers or skin. Sharing body heat. Ears pointing toward those you care about to show your full attention is on them. Slow blinking.

[arcadeofghosts]

“Wow, it’s almost like you can read my mind.” says the guy who I share a brain with

[terror-punk]

Be Openly Scary

Society is scared of a lot of things it shouldn't be. A lot of those things can't be helped, a lot of those things don't hurt anyone, and a lot of those things are not what people even think they truly are.

So you know what?

Talk about your hallucinations, your delusions, your psychotic symptoms. Share things about your gender identity whether it be nonconforming, trans, xenogender or anything else. Scream about your nonhumanity and animal urges. Be open and unwavering about your systems existence, presenting as more-than-one wherever you want. Use and introduce your pronouns, even if people find them weird or offputting. Rock back and forth, pace, twitch and stim in any way you please. Wear things that reflect your identity in public. Get tattoos and body mods to your heart's content. Tell people about your personality disorders.

Don't make yourself small because others can't handle you. Be open where safe. Be you. Be scary.

[possessed-pack]

In-system relationships can be so intimate.

Waking up together, opening the same eyes, and stretching the same limbs. Yawning in time and saying a good morning that only you who are involved can understand what it's for.

Sharing a meal, not only from the same plate, but with the same hands and the same senses. Deciding what to eat together, something that fits all of your tastes.

Curled in the same bed, in the same blankets, in the same body, drowzily mumbling about nothing and everything to each other. Joking around and feeling their sleepy laugh as if it were your own.

Living life, and inviting them to share yours and your time in it--performing your daily tasks in the unison of cofront. Seeing and hearing and feeling everything together.

Feeling them blush when you flirt or compliment them. Feeling their joy when you get them a gift, or how safe you make them feel simply when you're around them.

Enveloped in the same love, from the same brain, with the same feeling of care for each other palpable between you. Feeling the emotions you feel yourself, coming from the other person. Feeling their love for you, in the rawest, most direct possible way.

[leviafin]

Exotrauma

Having exotrauma from a "cringe" or "silly" source sucks. It feels like you're taken infinitely less seriously than those who have trauma from grittier, adult-geared and/or "acceptable" sources. Which in and of itself just isolates you and makes it worse.

I'm not just a silly little thing from your silly little Roblox game that could never show signs of trauma because it's 'just a kids game'--and I'm not your blorbo either. It feels like there's 2 common options for how people treat fictionkind with exotrauma:

Oh my poor little scrunkly, my little cardboard box meow meow.... Going to hold you because I love babying you and treating you like you're not even a person because I see you only as my favourite character. (Mind you, this is distinctly SEPARATE from actual friendly support, you can tell the difference.)

You're not a fictional character, get over it lmao. Yeah I know you are them but like you didn't ACTUALLY live through that, stop claiming it, it's disrespectful. Why are you upset at my memes about your death lol. Get a life.

So like... Maybe fictionkind are people. Maybe I don't want to think about the worse parts of my source. Maybe I don't want my trauma shoved in my face as a little funny joke, even if the context is changed. Maybe, just maybe... Leave alterhumans with fictional sources alone. Even if their source is lighthearted, even if it's for kids, even if it's the most "cringe" media you can think of.

Sonic the Hedgehog might've seemed fine in-source but maybe he's fucked up from all that he's been through. That warrior cat alterhuman isn't just being edgy, maybe they're suffering from the memories of fighting to survive day in and day out. Bluey is allowed to be not okay, and their source shouldn't dictate their experiences. Do you ever think that some Pokemon or trainers don't have amazing, adventurous lives travelling around with their best friends? Mario might have nightmares and flashbacks from his source. Mickey Mouse is allowed to be hurt, and allowed to express that. That MLP alterhuman isn't always going to be just a happy colourful magic pony with no issues whatsoever.

We are PEOPLE, and our sources being "happy", "for kids", "light-hearted", "fun" or anything of the sort should NOT dictate how we are treated here, what our experiences are "allowed" to be, or how we are expected to act. Treat fictionkind--of all sorts--like PEOPLE.

[disabirbity]

What are some things other psychotics do to differentiate between hallucination and reality? And what are ways some of you hold off symptoms? Looking to get a nice thread for people to help each other going here, this stuff isn't posted about enough.

Ways we prevent symptoms/stop them from progressing:

Make background noise to prevent auditory hallucinations. Most of ours start by hearing something that we can't identify the cause of in the background, and our brain starts the spiral from there. So we listen to music all the time and sleep with a fan on every single night, even in the winter. We just point it away from us if we don't want it making us cold.

Blame the cat (or other pets). Any weird movement, scratching, crunching or thumping? That's just Jerry, don't worry about it. He's a silly cat that does cat things even while we're sleeping. Any noise can be blamed on pets or the wind, which stops the paranoia from setting in and making everything bad.

We also tell ourselves that if there was an actual issue like an intruder or monster, the cat would hiss or scream, and the dog would be barking or making noise. This can be applied to many pets.

Stay busy. Focus on something--art, video games, tv shows and films, craft, gardening, anything that keeps you thinking. Don't let the anxiety get to you, just stay focused on your regular life.

Laugh at it. You're hallucinating a monster in your peripheral vision? Name it Fred and tell him to pay rent. You hear weird noises? Tell them to come back with a warrant. For us, treating symptoms like they're jokes or not serious makes us less anxious and therefore makes it easier to get back to a point where we're okay.

Having a friend or a pet near you can help. We feel safer and less alone when we see another living thing near us that's safe. We don't feel as much like we're trapped in another dimension that way.

How we differentiate between reality and unreality:

Touch it. This one only works for things you're not scared of, and if you don't have tactile hallucinations. It's not foolproof! But when we're seeing things like bugs and stuff, reaching out to touch them causes them to fade away so we know they're fake.

Ask friends and other trusted people if they "heard that" or "saw anything". If they're psychosis friendly, feel free to explain and be specific. If not, be vague and keep it to simple things like "hey did you hear anything? I couldn't tell what it was", if that will be safe enough. Having people to ground you can be great.

Look at how others around you are acting. Are they running or interacting with the thing in question in any way? Do they seem to look at it or no? If no one is noticing, it's less likely to be real.

These won't work for everyone and some of these might be harmful to others, but they're helpful to us. You know best what will help you!

Please feel free to add your own! We need more discussion around psychosis that isn't "scary evil person disorder and how to deal with people who have it".

[binks-brew-co]

Honestly I think when the TwiYor reveal happens, that Yor is going to be less upset that Twilight lied to her and much much more about the implication that he’s not actually doing everything for Anya out of pure parental love. She knows he’s in a fake marriage and that she’s complicit in it - apart from the whole Garden vs. Wise and "traitor" thing, I don’t think that would bother her that much. But the entire time she’s been under the impression that 1) Anya is Loid’s biological daughter and 2) that all his harshness and strictness with Anya is ultimately for her own good (e.g. he intrinsically wants her to get good grades, make friends, etc.). Of course, we as the audience know that Twilight has come to care about Anya deeply and actually does want those things for her. But imagine not being privy to that internal journey, then suddenly finding out that your model for good parenthood has other motivations and is using your beloved daughter to further his own (essentially political) aims. While Yor is using the family for her own aims, she’s not using Anya, which is a major difference between her and Twilight. Yor also has no idea Anya joined the mission willingly, and since Twilight doesn’t either, he can’t use that argument to defend himself

I’m expecting this to be a major source of conflict post-reveal (possibly even the defining conflict of the series - can love shine through the layers of deception?). The only way I sense they’ll get out of this is Twilight somehow breaking down, fully recognizing that he does care for Anya as more than a tool, and his actions somehow indirectly revealing it to Yor. Or perhaps her intuition is strong enough to recognize that Twilight’s full of shit and he does love his family, but given her track record with overprotectiveness of children and difficulty discerning true intentions, I doubt that

[kaboom--bitch]

Man being a fictive from a source people know is fucked. People greet you like they know you and you just have to sit there. "Hi Bakugo!!!!!" who are you. What do you want. Why are you in my house.

[fleshfictive]

saw a post that was complaining about how someone else put the "endos dni" tag on a post reminding ppl to drink water. like, "why is endos dni on this post? youre gatekeeping potentially life saving information!!!"

number one: ppl have the right to curate their online experience lol. if i dont want you on my blog i can do that. simple.

number two: "gatekeeping potentially life saving information"??? a tumblr post saying to drink water??? i am begging you to go outside and interact with the world around you for once in your life

[deltoradecay]

Being median is funny. I'm not a singlet and not multiple, but a secret third thing. Who am I? Depends on the day but when it comes down to it, I'm me. Who's that? Wouldn't you like to know, weather boy. I'm people soup. A coin with two sides, but still a coin.

[mystery-aberration]

System roles do not have to be your entire identity. You do not have to conform to the stereotypes of them, and you do not have to hold your role alone or without help. You do not need to keep them forever, either. They may be what you were placed into the system to help with, and they may be something you are good at--but it does not have to be you forever.

I am a persecutor, and that does not mean I should be treated differently or harmed. Being a persecutor does not mean that everyone should be scared of you by default either.

Protectors should not be expected to be strong and emotionless walls to put in front of everything all the time. They do not need to be tools.

Comforters might need a break to unload their own stress and need comfort in turn. They do not need to give all of themselves to everyone else and never expect help back.

Littles may not be littles forever, and should not be devalued just because they are children. They are just as real and alive as any other system member and should be taken into account.

Trauma/memory holders might need help to cope with the things they hold, and sometimes when the time is right it means sharing that burden. Maybe there is no right time, but they deserve support whether they can share those memories or not.

Gatekeepers may need a break from controlling switches or access to front, and should be allowed one if needed. Gatekeeping can be a lot of work.

Hosts do not need to do everything for the body or system all the time. Sometimes, being the host of a system can be hard, and support and breaks are deserved.

Systems often put a lot of weight on roles, and it can impact the way that those who have them can feel about their role. It is okay to fit into your role, but it is also okay to not fit, or to end up not fitting your role over time. Some headmates can feel like a failure if they do not uphold their role, some can feel like they have no other choice even if they wanted to not perform it. But a role is a description, it is not an essence of who you are and will forever be. This may be non-traditional but we use roles exclusively as self descriptors so that we do not get wrapped up in what we "should be". If the label no longer fits, or if you need help more than you might have in the past, that is okay.

Be kind to yourselves, and be kind to your other headmates.

[interstellarsystem]

Shoutout to singlets that accept systems for who they are. Singlets who ask respectful questions and try to understand us. Singlets who do their best to accommodate different headmates and make them feel included. Singlets who listen to what systems have to say. You're so important. Please keep doing what you do.

[proship-mafuyu]

rent lowering gunshots i am PRO-PARA i am PRO-RADQUEER i am PRO-TRANSID i am PRO-ENDO i am PRO-LOVE AND KINDNESS !!!!

you can still interact if you disagree with me but i don’t think you’d want to!!!

[orange-cheetah]

Wind Breaker Song Parody Doodles (2)

A collection of Nii-sensei's song parody doodles posted on Twitter! Will be linking sensei's tweet, the corresponding song, and windbreakerdaily's post of the illustration here on Tumblr.

(Part 1)

In this post: Panda Hero | Solar System Disco | Shinigami | Mahi | Shin Takarajima

[ nii_satoru | windbreakerdaily ]

Hachi - Panda Hero

If you find yourself troubled, call for them, on the field enclosed by electric towers

A black-and-white hero of unclear morals, a metal bat in their left hand

[ nii_satoru | windbreakerdaily ]

NayutalieN - Solar System Disco

Under the boisterous light of that first magnitude star

shall we dance a dance together?

In tune with the heartbeat of our solar system

let's sparkle with tangled steps, star!

[ nii_satoru | windbreakerdaily ]

Kenshi Yonezu - Shinigami (full ver. covered by dongdang)

Alright, what needs to be taken care of?

Like to get a glimpse of him after he's been put through hell

Want to see his face

After he's gone off flying, slipped, cried and bawled

He can't get away from us anyway

[ nii_satoru | windbreakerdaily ]

yama - Mahi

Even though I was fragile that I'll break

I was strongly seeking love

I don't want to forget what it means to be standing on this stage

I never want to forget it

[ nii_satoru | windbreakerdaily ]

sakanaction - Shin Takarajima

In order to bring you along with me now

I'll draw oh so carefully;

With these shaky, trembling lines

I've decided

To draw oh so carefully

Notes: These are the 10 I could find so far! I'm going off on sensei's captions / the words in the drawings, so do let me know if I've missed any. Check out the songs too 🎵 Hope this has been an interesting read to you!

[possessed-pack]

Okay but will there actually come a day where anti-endos stop being ableist while also accusing others of being ableist? You can't preach that you're "protecting victims" while also sitting there being all "endos/those who support them are delusional!!". Psychosis is not your tool for hate, and psychotic people are no lesser than anyone else and do not deserve to be used to discredit other peoples experiences that you simply don't understand. Traumagenic DID systems who support endos exist, but you hate those too--what happened to protecting "actual trauma survivors"? You are not protecting disabled people, you are using them as a tool to explain your hatred for things you don't care to understand.

[draconicred]

Curled up in bed, in-system partners cuddled up with me and imposing their presence for just a little bit more realism, the bed warm and fluffy with a weighted blanket.... Plurality isn't always mundane, and it isn't always kind, but taking the time to stop and relax is so important. It's a life worth living and I wouldn't trade it for anything.